The optimist in me


Welcome to Goals & Good vibes!! Unless you know me personally, you probably don’t know the craziness that is my life right now. My 2 year old son and I are struggling pretty bad and if we can’t find a place by November, we’ll basically be homeless. It took me awhile, but I was able to find a job that I don’t exactly love. The good part? I can bring my son with me there. It takes up a majority of my day and it’s throughout the whole week besides the weekend. So it’s even harder for me to find a place and be able to contact anyone during working hours. I’ve always thought things will work out and been pretty positive about that we get closer to the time we have to leave the place we’re staying, I’m losing hope. My fiance and the father of my son happens to be in prison until December and it’s very hard finding a place I can afford, that allows cats, and will approve a homeplan for someone on parole.

Someone I know said recently, how do you stay so cheery even though your life sucks? Which was quite insensitive to ask me that. I don’t think my life sucks. I have a healthy son (besides the fact we keep getting sick at this daycare we have to go to.) I have a fiance who has his own demons, but loves us and is TRYING, I usually have everything I need; Clothes, food, diapers, wipes, etc.

I am not happy or cheery based on circumstances. I know that one day the effort I’m putting in will lead me to the right place. I know that when one door closes, it wasn’t the right door. I know one day with the way I don’t give up, I’ll have a home for my family and we won’t go without anything we want or need.

I hope you keep that flame inside you lit, even when your life isn’t going great. It will work out, even if it takes time and you don’t really see a way out. Thanks for reading.

2 responses to “The optimist in me”

  1. DutchIl – Retired, over the hill and gathering speed….no significant other…. Independent, a free spirit in thinking… born again heathen complete with long hair and earrings 🙂 …not into religious, political or social ideologies… not above sailing against the wind…. exploring life while hanging around to see how it all ends… From the poem Journey of Self Discovery.; I my setting on a journey of my own, The mistakes I make shall be mine, The regrets shall be my defined, Its fall or rise, Time will play a key role, As Frost said, I have an option of two paths ahead of me, One pre decided by my ancestors, less risky and challenging, Other of my own, I decide to take the less travelled one, To mark on journey of my own. (Illahi Bedi) Veteran, SGT, USMC (Vietnam, in country 1965-66, 12th Marine Regiment). COOP/SWOP Observer (since 2001 to present), NWS, ILX, NOAA, Dept of Commerce, USA. Met Weather Office, United Kingdom. Ebird (Cornell Lab of Orinthology/Audubon society). Member; (since 2005 to present) BOINC Project (University of Berkeley, Calif.); Princess Margaret Cancer Center/World Community Grid (Mapping Cancer), Setihome (astrophysics/astrobiology University of Berkeley, Calif.). “Everyday on the path least traveled brings change, that change presents a challenge, mentally and physically, as to how to accept it and deal with it, generates an excitement about living a second of time and looking forward to what the next second of time brings, looking forward to life and enjoying it.” Larry “Dutch” Woller 6/9/2016 “If there is any kindness I can show, or any good I can do to any fellow being, let me do it now, and not defer or neglect it, as I shall not pass this way again” William Penn.
    DutchIl says:

    Thank you for sharing!!.. you are a courageous and intelligent lady and I am sure that good things will start to happen if you keep believing.. perhaps can get help from organizations to help you through the difficult times…. 🙂

    “I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together”… (Marilyn Monroe)… 🙂

    Until we meet again…
    May love and laughter light your days,
    and warm your heart and home.
    May good and faithful friends be yours,
    wherever you may roam.
    May peace and plenty bless your world
    with joy that long endures.
    May all life’s passing seasons
    bring the best to you and yours!
    (Irish Saying)

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